The beginning of the end

I still don't hate my job, but I've gotten to the point that I find it hard to tolerate certain people. Because I've found out what they're made of. Some are the people that act nice, but really aren't. They fool a lot of people, but I've watched them closely and I am shocked at the extent of their phoniness. Then we have to ones that betray their own colleagues by ratting them out to management, just to get ahead.

Things have been getting worse for us since a certain person took over management. And a lot of people just rant to each other about it, as a way of coping. It's probably not the best way, but yeah. So there was this incident recently when two of my colleagues where have one of those conversations. And then they where called in by management. Somebody went running to tell the boss about what they were talking about. And it wasn't something that terrible really. They were just making some jokes. And respect should not be demanded, respect should be earned.

We managed to narrow it down to the only one person who could have done that. And guess what, just today, we found out that she was promoted. Which is a WTF? kind of thing because she stands out with nothing. There were a lot more colleague that are way better at their job than she is so I really can't wrap my mind how the heck was she promoted. But then again, they are the ones who constantly challenge the management. So, I guess you don't really have to be worthy of a promotion. You just have to stick your tongue deep enough in your boss' derriere.

When I first started working here, the company was a lot smaller and I was actually very happy. And I didn't feel like complaining even when I had a really tough day work wise. But once it started expanding, it began looking more and more like a prison. So much corporate BS mixed with "traditional" Romanian practices. A lot of the crappy things don't even involve me directly. But it's hard to cope with the amount of injustice I see around. I didn't even apply for the position this girl just got. But I knew people who were a lot more deserving and wanted/ needed it more.  And I'm not saying this subjectively. One of the perks of working for a corporation is that you get a monthly dashboard with everybody's results. And it's very easy to make a comparison.

I don't want to quit because my life pretty much depends on this job and I don't really hate what I do. It's hard word, but I don't dread going to work because of the actual work. Just because it sickens me when I see what's going on. But I guess I need to learn to cope with these things, accept what I can't change, or even slightly influence, er else I'll drive myself mad.